Isn’t human psychology interesting? The more I study it, the more I appreciate how intricate and tricky our brains are.
It seems like you never really know what your true motives are until you start learning about your own brain.
Recently, I had to acknowledge the fact that I’m apparently a bit of a control freak. I am also very good at tricking myself with the illusion of control. I found this out the hard way when it came down to terrible indoor air quality in my office. For the past year or so, I have had my own private office at work so that I can manage a large research lab. When I got to my office, I was very excited to have my own private thermostat. During all of the years that I worked in the lab, it was bitterly cold. I was always freezing and shivering when I was trying to do my lab work. The building had an intensive air quality control system which was designed to help with air purification and decontamination. Because the central cooling system was so powerful, there was always ice cold air blasting through every vent. As someone who is naturally cold, I really didn’t appreciate the abundant AC every moment of every day. I got into my office for the first time, and immediately knew I wanted to change the thermostat to compensate for this overpowering cooling system. I turned the temperature up and was much happier when I reported to work each day. Then, the facility manager stopped to talk to me the other day. He mentioned that the indoor air quality had been fluctuating, and asked if I noticed it in my office. When I told him about my differing thermostat settings, he just laughed. He told me that the thermostat was a dummy. I never had control over the office temperature at all.